I slept for 12 hours. It’s been so long since I haven’t woken up at 3 in the morning. I know there are things that I need to do, and I know one of them is self-compassion, but what if I just go on being lazy and call it compassion? I’ve been out of bed…
I cried after the party, on the drive back to JodiAnn and Tim’s. When my partner left the contra, I was left to the sidelines, watching partners do-si-do and satchet, mourning the loss of my partner. Jen says the 108-month of struggle is ending for Aquarians. Has it been that long? “You’ll see, when you’re…
I remember the writer, she was the one who had won the big scholarship, who at the end of the summer session in Prague, said, “I love how you ask questions.” I don’t remember her name, I hope she’s had a good career. I had asked Jack Myers how he squared writing about his loved…
Inside me there’s an aimless gutterpunk goth street urchin walking the streets all night, angry at something but doesn’t quite know what, looking for an abandoned house or heart to squat.
Looking back, after the reading I’ve done this last year, it’s likely that complex PTSD was a strong undercurrent of my Last Major Relationship (TM). There were signs<&Mdash;>Pema Chodron’s When Things Fall Apart always on the living room table, for example. I mean, we talked about past Traumas and traumas<&Mdash;>her family had a history of…
When I am cut down and harvested for planks and burls, and someone counts my rings, they’ll see a rich, dark ring circa March 2018 through September 2019. Those 17-18 months were potent. March 11, 2018 I broke up with my girlfriend, and launched into a period of personal growth. I moved out and sold…
I have felt something this week in my body, a bounce in my step. While cleaning the kitchen this morning I thought, Oh–is is that I’m listening to more music? Before that, my working hypothesis was: earlier this week I felt a tickle in my throat so I took half a dose of night-time cold…